February 2012
109 posts
3 things today: 1. Just know that it kills me to be here without you 2. Heated embrace, run my lover 3. It all started with Oracle Night I’m down to the last few pages of The Age of Innocence, and the ending looks bleak but that’s the whole point of it - the beauty in the whole process, even though it fucking sucks.
I can’t stop thinking about the future and where now will lead me to eventually next time. I’ve let go of a few things that I felt needed letting go of at that moment in time but now I’m not so sure if I made the right choices. It’s not so much of a regret but it’s more of placing two items on a weighing scale and finding out which one has more worth to it.
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“I have the deepest affection for intellectual conversations. The ability to just...”
Midnight in Paris was so so good
I’m half conscious of what’s happening but fully conscious of the fact that the day will come when we will drift apart eventually. I think my heart is in the wrong hands now and I can’t recognize myself anymore.
My ex lover is dead
“There is one friend in the life of each of us who seems not a separate person,...”
– Edith Wharton
All the saints and liars that have been sent to me, I’ve made half-hearted decisions but with confident good intentions but all were for naught.
I’ve temporarily dislocated my emotional bone but I still hope that love will keep us alive.
I’m still in that stretch of time where you have to adjust to life without certain people who once played a massive influence on you. I’m not exactly happy about it, but I only realised very recently that most of the people I’d surrounded myself with weren’t good for me, and that I was willing to change myself to be in their favour.
And I knew that I could trust you whether or not I was feeling insecure or whether or not I felt that I could trust anyone. That makes all the difference
Excitedly awaiting the approach of the holidays. I have so many things I want to do but with so little time, and of course with the limitations of the human body, they have to be sorted and prioritized.
First things first, finally getting more time to spend on my reading so I can bring down the number of my unread books - yes this is exciting. I’m still stuck on The Age of Innocence, got to...
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We don’t know what we’re talking about, what we’re doing or where the fuck we’re heading to. All we want to know is that there is more reason to believe that right now is the best possible future that we could invest all our effort and time in.
And maybe she was right about that. That right now could be a good friend until the moment tided over and brought in more clarity....
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I’ve forgiven I’ve forgotten I’ve read your letter And now I know better You didn’t mean to do what you did But you didn’t know what else there was to say And underneath that oak tree Our memory will stay The happiness will spread Sink its roots deep into the ground It will keep growing For the memory will never fade If I visit it one day Welcome me with open arms I...
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If she should look deeper into the situation, she’ll come to find that it wasn’t so complicated as she thought it would be.
But she thought a lot of things and she did not trust herself so much so that she should believe every thought of her own could be accounted through self-faith.
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These thoughts come so fast together without warning, without explanation and they definitely don’t come with the best solutions. I know the questions that I have for myself may not be met with the best answers or even the right ones, but the stories that we want to create are all of our own. The night has made it clear that it will make a good companion, for your mixed emotions and for your...
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Before he leaves he’ll scribble the first name that comes to his mind on the notebook paper you’ve left lying around in your apartment somewhere. He’ll pick up every single piece of clothing that is strewn on the carpet floor and every single article or artifact of which belongs to him. He’ll ask for a cup of coffee, strong, and he’ll grin at you with the cheekiness...
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If any good observer should know, every single post here means something to me. It really does mean something private and it is here because it stirred an emotion in me or because there is a certain aspect of it that I can relate to. No one post in here is redundant or reposted just for the sake of reposting. These are private, and crucial. If not why else would they be here instead of on...
“You must write every single day of your life. You must lurk in libraries to...”
– Ray Bradbury
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What I can possibly (really start to) like about you
the way you smell your good natured uncorrupted humor how you give in even though the requests are impossible the way you still believe that there’s good in everyone how unpretentious you are- if you don’t know something you admit it your understanding of how everyone’s character is like and how you accomodate for certain...
